It's crazy how just typing out your feelings really helps, just putting it out there. Just got an email from H, asking how I am today, and that he may be home tonite, it's disgusting because I know he spent last nite in a hotel with his toy, and he emails me as soon as he gets to work! Will ignore email, he knows I am off work this week, for the most part. I work tonite until 9, kids will be with Mom, so noone will be around when he makes his nightly kid call. There's some satisfction in that, I know he is starting to wonder who I spend my time with. Being mysterious can be fun, but it is hard!
