Hi ladies... Thanks for your support. I will check in with your threads...
Today was okay...got a haircut...can i tell you, i love it! Had visitation today. H called on my way to haircut appointment...told him i would probably be by the house around 2p. Got to my house around 1:50...he pulled in a few minutes later. He stayed for a few minutes. Told me i was too skinny and that i need to eat...tried to convince him that i do...he asked how much i weighed now and what size my jeans were. He kept telling me to eat and that he didn't want me to get sick...then he started crying and said he was sorry about my back. Told him i was fine and that i would be okay (why am i comforting him when i am the one going under the knife?) Anyway, he got his coat on to leave, then stayed and made me a sandwich so that i would eat. He gave me several kisses and hugs. Then he left. I was there for a few hours and was getting ready to leave when he came home...a few more kisses before i left and that was that. He said, "okay, i'll talk to you soon." Told him that that bothered me...the "soon"...that i attached a negative meaning to it...like it meant he would talk to me in the next month or something. Probably not a good thing to say, but i had to. He said, "what would be better? i'll talk to you tomorrow." So, that was that. Overall, a decent visit. But, it is so confusing...he is still affectionate towards me...there is no tension...i don't get it. Not that i would prefer if he was nasty, but it is confusing nonetheless. But, i am NOT complaining.
Anyway, here i am, on Saturday night and i am home alone again...god, i am sooooo bored.
