my cousin committed suicide almost a year ago (2/13/05). it still hits me like a ton of bricks on a daily basis... here's a great big hug.
and weird as it may be, my mom has gone through the skin cancer deal on and off for the last 7 years. i know it's scary and hard... we're here for you even if we can't be "there" for you.
you're entitled to a little feeling sorry for yourself.... we are all... life just keeps handing us stuff huh? day after day - minute after minute. but the beauty of it is, you are so strong and so incredibly wonderful - even in your weakest moments. and the fact that you're here, not only sharing your pain, but trying to help others through theirs... i can't say enough how inspiring that is. you hang in there...