Hi guys- Having a tough night. Kept myself busy at work today, but today is a tough day. Two years ago, an old friend of mine committed suicide. Its weird, i hadn't seen him in so long, and yet when i heard it about it, it hit me so hard. Just a lousy day.
And to make matters worse, i got a message from my H tonight. I called him back and he said he would call me later...that he wanted to talk to me, but it was nothing urgent. So, i obsessed for 2 hours over what it was. He finally called a little while ago. My doctor's office called my house today. Turns out that one of the biopsies i had done last week came back with "abnormal cells." I had skin cancer almost 3 years ago, and last spring i had to have something with "abnormal cells" removed. This is the same thing, and probably isn't a big deal. Just that, its hard to have to go through this without my H. He even came with me last spring, despite things being soooo tense b/w us. I don't know if he will offer this time. I have to call the doctor tomorrow to find out what the next step is and H did tell me to call him as soon as i spoke to the doctor. God, this sucks.
Sorry, just feeling very sorry for myself tonight. Going to check on all of you.
