I think it’s a good plan to lower your expectations, and I should abide by the same line of thinking. It’s hard to do this, though. I used to never doubt H. or the things I knew he would do for me. Now I have to change the way I think about him, and it’s nearly impossible some days. I know you understand. Now, what did he buy you? Is it your birthday soon? I don’t know if you feel this way, Imdi, but now that the hustle of the holidays has come and gone, I find myself feeling a void. The holidays kept me busier, despite being difficult to get through. I feel like life is getting back to normal now for everyone but me, and this limbo place I am in feels stark and lonely. I don’t mean to bring down your thread, Imdi. Just wondered if you felt this way too?
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
