PandDBing- Thank you for taking the time to respond to my sitch. I read what you wrote and i don't disagree with you. I know, in my heart and in my head, that i need to get out and start living my life. At times, though, i just feel paralyzed. I worry so much about what my H will think. I have tried to be the "good wife" staying home and showing my H that i can be trusted. Thing is, he doesn't even know b/c i doubt he checks where i am. I've been living my life as somebody's wife. But, has my H been doing the same? I don't think so. I just don't want to give him any more reason to leave me. But you're right...nothing i do is going to sway him one way or the other. And even if i do go out, its not like i am going out with another guy or to meet somebody. Its just so that i don't sit home anymore. I do try. Its hard to do. But, i do think i am going to go to a movie one day soon...i want to see Brokeback Mtn.
Okay, that post was all over the place. I am so scattered today. Thanks again for your thoughts.
