TTS- Thanks for your reply. I know that actions speak louder than words. It just hurts so much to think that maybe he isn't being honest with me about loving me, etc. I also have to think about something that he said...that the fact that he hadn't actually filed means that he is still ambivalent...and i guess he is right...
I have thought that he wants me to be the one to file so that i can be the bad guy. But, i have made it perfectly clear to him that i would not be the one to file. I told him...you want this, you file. So, he is aware that i am not going to do it. I think most people, at least those that matter, do not blame me anyway. His parents are upset that this is happening and are mad that he forced me out of our house. I believe that they know i am not to blame...
I have wondered if he is just telling me what i want to hear. But, i certainly did not want to hear "we are not going to be together now" and that D is still a possibility. I do believe that he was being honest with me yesterday, and i appreciate that. He even said that he couldn't tell me things would be okay. He also said that we have both made mistakes and that other people in our situation probably would have kicked each other to the curb by now. He is taking responsibility for his part in this. I do think also that he is trying to convince himself that he is doing the right thing by D me...he knows that i really have been a good wife.
Thanks for your reply...you gave me a lot to think about.
