Bless your heart, Imdi. Boy, is that a lot to digest! I have some thoughts. Your feelings seem to be a mirror reflection of mine right before I found out all that I found out with my H two weeks ago. Not saying that's going to happen to you, of course, but I want to respond to some of the feelings you're having. I have a few things to do, but I'll be back around later and will post then. Hang in there, and don't be so hard on yourself. All the questions are perfectly normal, and actually very healthy.
