I got really scared of him, not because of his threats, but because of how different he acted and sounded from the man I married.
I hear ya on this one. My H has said and done things over the past 2 years that i NEVER in a million years thought he was capable of. I think that is the hardest thing in all of this...thinking that he isn't the man i thought he was. That is scary.
I too have thought about the whole Laci Peterson thing. One night, when i had moved home and after my H moved out, after I had found H at ow's house...i was asleep and heard someone creeping up the steps. I knew it couldn't be my H b/c i had put a board under the front door handle so no one could get in (can you tell i hate sleeping in a house by myself?) Anyway, i am laying in bed, thinking "this is it...i am going to die." And then i turned over to find H standing there. Needless to say i almost wet the bed...he scared the s..t out of me! He had come in through the back door (duh) b/c he had seen the lights on and wanted to say goodnight. I'll tell ya...i was convinced he had come there to kill me to keep his secret, well, a secret. It was a horrible night...b/c i hated that i actually thought my H was capable of that and it made me wonder what the hell was happening. Anyway, i can not even imagine what poor Laci was thinking/feeling when she realized her H was about to kill her...terrible.
I think it is a lesson that we all should be extra careful, b/c you just never know. For those of you who actually had closer brushes with assault/death, I feel for you. I am amazed at your strength and determination. PandDBing...just be extra careful...we all care for you!
