I skipped lunch because at work I ate some homemade chex mix, then it was someone's birthday and I had a cookie and a piece of cake. I made up for it a tiny bit by having an orange juice in the afternoon. I had a healthy dinner, though!
On thinking....by all means do it and write about it on your thread! Just try to do it from the somewhat detached point of view of being a spectator to a very strange event. Wonder why, toss around theories, find humor in the outrageous things H does, but in the end realize you are just guessing and the answer is not that important to the overall story. Believe me, I still struggle with all the "why" questions all the time and it's been 2.5 years for me! I still don't understand what happened. But, most days I'm okay with that. I've wasted a lot of time and misery agonizing over my sitch, and I was hoping to get you to "let go" a little sooner than I did (if I in fact have yet).
