prego, I believe in signs. Read my post under caverna's thread IV, titled "HOLLY SH*&!"
I actually have a book called "When God Winks." Here is how I found this book: I went to a bookstore to get some R books and this one was misplaced in that session, kinda thrown over all the books. I started going through it and wondered if that was true... if God does winks. Then I said a prayer and closed my eyes and asked for a sign. I have this thing w/ the number 9. I see it everywhere before something good happens (I know, I am crazy), but when I openned my eyes this girl was standing right in front of me with her back turned to me. She was wearing a soccer shirt with a big 9 on it. So I had to buy the book.
What were your signs?
About the dream w/ OW. I had that dream when H came back home. I woke up so furious that I punched him Not a good move.
I think it's a process. It's like what some people experienced after September, 11. It's an after shock effect: you have nightmares about a trauma. Maybe you should read about post-traumatic disorder and learn how you can get out of this rut. You are traumatized, but, then again, it's really recent, so it would be abnormal if you weren't affected by it.
Not a good move.
