It's good to have you back! Sorry that you had a rough Christmas, but you are so strong you'll get past it and be better off! I have been wondering how Christmas has affected the WAS and how they MUST feel something (guilt, remorse, discomfort, just something) for what they have done. Take comfort in the thought that your H was feeling like sh*t at some point in the day for the decisions he's made!
Those dreams are the worst, aren't they? I hate being haunted by the thought of the OW. You're right, it kind of puts you back to square one with your feelings. The good part is that you're much more wise now than before, so you're not really at square one after all. It may feel like it, but you're in a better place than you were before and you have the insight of knowing better! It's normal to have these dreams though. The situation is on your mind, so of course it will come to you in dreams. Don't be discouraged, just recognize it as a dream and continue on...
I've heard that having a glass of wine isn't bad for the baby once you've made it through the first trimester. Don't worry, you certainly earned that glass of wine! Your baby's old enough not to suffer any reprocussions from it.
