New years has come. In my previous post I said that W was coordial all day. Tonite could only be described as 'stand offish'. D15 had a few friends over for a small party. We played board games and card games for fun. W acted like I wasn't there most of the time. Of course I tried to be cool about it but it's hard NOT to feel the rejection.
Anyway, I gave all the teens rides home with D15 and on the way back from the last dropoff I asked her if I came across as 'down' to her friends as I didn't want to ruin her party so I was trying to be upbeat. She said 'No, you were OK but I have no idea what is up with Mom, she was very angry and out there'.
She asked me if I had any idea what was up and I said I wasn't sure, that W seemed like she was in a bad place emotionally. I mentioned to D15 that mom thought she was receiving negative energy from someone and D15 said 'Dad, I am really woried about her. Please make sure she doesn't join a cult or something. She says some stuff to me that she believes that I just can't understand how she can believe it.' (she couldn't give an example).
I told her not to worry, W is not nuts, she is just trying to understand her life.
That was so weird though, that D15 is getting bad vibes from W.
Anyway, tonite was cruddy but we lived. I have no idea what is making W hostile as we did't fight over anything, and this mornings emotional issues she had, where I held her to help her feel better, seemed to have ended up being the only time she was nice all day - when she needed me.
ANyway, I have been beat up enough lately so I'm back to my 'let go' mental state finally.
