{{{{{{Rere}}}}}} There a lot of us who are facing our first Christmas without H. I know what you mean about not thinking about it or you will break down and cry. It is difficult, but sounds like you are able to handle it. Give yourself a hug, a pedicure a pice of pie, get the idea?! I plan on praying for the day to go fast and be over with so I can resume the day to day routine that gets me through. Let H come to YOU next time. You deserve to be chased and wanted. Someone once said to me: Don't chase him. YOU are the gem that HE has lost. Let him find that gem on his own. Keep looking up to the heavens, that is where the answer lies.
