You are right! I needed to be reminded that the mental and physical anguish I'm feeling is of my own making.
Sometimes it takes another person to point things out to us before we can internalize the sitch and resolve to keep on keeping on.
Becca, thanks for your imput. You all are great, thanks for your support. B/c of you all, I'm doing it---for the first time in seven months---I'm really doing it.