Corri,

You are love? 1 john 4:8
Do you have a god complex? J/k,
it was a good essay.


appears Stig and I arent the only ones with overclocking processors, and virus attacked hard drives.

Waiting to receive inhibits my ability to give... it takes up space in my being... and the more space my expectations take up... the less space I have to devote to loving.

I've stopped giving love and started waiting for it... and of course my feelings of love go away because I'm not doing it anymore.



Quote:

Why do I wade in?

Because it is part of your nature



My turn to second that comment and direct it from me to you. Why, especially since I know it kills your attraction to me. But Im back, trying again, since I dont care about that, I'm interested in and yes care about your choices.

I was getting ready to subtly lead you again, but Lil has the funny knack of c0ck-bl0cking me. (Dont know what other term to use for it, is there a pysch equivalent?)

Whats up with that LIL? and your a trained therapist. I need people to say stuff so I can point it out and say BINGO.

Back to you Corrie. Like I was saying I was going to attempt to lead you again, and had several plans, but, you know what?

I always see it when people do it to me, and it often annoys me. I find it insulting sometimes. Just spit it out and tell me, Im thinking. I'll truthfully afirm or deny.

I abhored when my x was not completely honest. I see it, your dishonesty insults me, I would think.

So Ill save that subtlety for innuendo, and teasing. Maybe even the occasional spank.

But no more intentioanl misunderstandings, it gets lost in BB communication abilities.

Blah blah blah, get to the point.
So Im not going to annoy, but I am going to persist. Your avoidance techniques better consist of directness also. IE 'back off, none of your business, leave me alone, I need a break' etc.

Other wise Ill know your just avoiding and wanting me to be a unattractive try hard.

You spoke of intent. So your here for insight, good company, great insights and incredible attractive BF. Mybe even a little Stig. Hes not too bad considering hes a interesting facsimile. LOL According to him Apparently we have even more commonalities. Freaky. hopefully he'll share. Im curious.

How about venting? Or are you too 'masterful' for that. Damn high walls I say again. Corri to me is sharp, insightful, educated, knowledgeable of R dynamics.

But is she human.

Methinks so.

I present the following.

Believe it or not, our friend CeMar gave me a piece of eye opening advice once a year or so ago... I had been explaining the dynamics between me and my STBX, trying YET AGAIN to fix it all through sheer force of will and stick-to-itness... and CeMar comes through and says something along the lines of... "you aren't sharing quality time, you are sharing space. He's treating you like he would one of his male buddies, sitting in the same room with you, doing a parallel activity, thinking that counts as quality time with you, because it DOES count with his male buddies..."

using a negative lowest common denominator, circular, pessimistic view is not helpful. No solutions there. just giving up and running away.

Do you know Underdog? Probably. I wonder if you have read thru her threads. I think there may be some good stuff for you there.

two more questions. rhetorical if you choose( dang people pleasers, always pointing out the obviousness of personal boundaries, and apolgizing excessively)

Do you respect your H?
What is your entitlement?

hope I dont play this tennis game by myself, I get winded real quick trying to play both sides of the net.

I may even steal a couple of those doritos, as I see they are now "trans-fat free'. Taste like dog kibble, IMO, and yes I know what it tastes like, cause Im , but it helps a good Alaska Amber beer go down. blech on beer, in general, but I need the empty calories.