I have to agree with Deb here. I think your own hurt and feelings of rejection are preventing you from seeing things in a more objective manner. I believe your H is indeed reaching out to you.
I hate to sound like a broken record around this place, but have you read "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" and 5LL?
If you're feeling a little stuck, which I think you are, these might help loosen up the ice dam.
Please continue to hang in there. I really sense you and H are at a crossroads, and you have the skills and tools and ability to tip the scales in favor of your M. Don't give up!
