Hanging on/The Long Haul #6

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Thank you all. I'll check out hopefloats for some ideas. Or if anyone has ideas throw them at me. Hit me hard, sometimes I can be pretty dense.

Nothing much new for me. I was gone when H got home last night, and when I walked in the house was different than usual. Just the atmosphere, he was cooking something for himself to eat, tv on, talking on the phone. Then the house phone rang and I answered it, talked to a friend. I didn't remember to go to a different room though, didn't even think of it. One nice thing that H did was offer me a piece of fudge when he was in the candy jar. Had a two sentence conversation about the Rose Bowl game. That was the night. But I finally slept pretty good. Went to bed by midnight and didn't wake up except once until after 5am. That helps.

So, maybe this marriage isn't worth working on or fighting for anymore. Maybe H is just as deflated and confused as I am about what to do. But I won't give up just yet. I'm just stuck, and have run out of ideas and courage. And I'm pretty sure it shows.