Hanging on/The Long Haul #6

[DonH]

"But I sure didn't like how it felt last night being solo."

Being an arm chair C, I'd say that a huge amount of what you continue to do is based in this statement. You dislike this feeling so much that putting up with just about anything else is better than having to be by yourself. Are you seeing a C? Have you thought about it? I think that addressing this issue might do wonders for all sorts of aspects of your life including your M. For, unless you get past this fear and this feeling, I'm not sure you'll ever be able to break out of the cycle that you are in. Plus, while it will help you to deal with your life no matter what the future holds, I so strongly believe that if you can get a handle on this huge road block that it will also help you to unlock the key to GAL and getting your M back.

There is nothing wrong with feeling bad about being alone. It's a very natural feeling - at least where you are right now. A C should not be there to stop you from feeling bad. Rather her/she can help you to do other things and more forward in other ways in spite of that feeling.

Hang in there and way to go on going on your own! It's a great step for you to have taken. Keep at it and take another.