Hanging on/The Long Haul #6

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Thanks for the confidence boost, anesyr.
Howdy, Lisa, nice to see you here!

if there is no one in your life who thinks you are a bit nuts, then you are not living life to its fullest!

Brava, no one has ever accused me of being normal! does that mean I am doing a good job??? H and I used to joke about that quite often.

My news for tonight, which I will take as all positive. Still finalizing the land deal with the new renter, and needed to meet in person to lay out details. H got home pretty late again, I was getting/letting bad thoughts creep in, but I'd had a good night of getting things done and felt good. Is that a contradiction? When H walked in he got his arm load of stuff caught on the door handle, so I made 'smarty' comment, and we got off to a good start. I said I know you just walked in, but would it work to go meet renters tonight? and we did. I think that's a real good positive, that he has interest in future plans for around here. Sure it can all change, but I didn't think he'd even come along with me to talk to them. But I am sure glad he did.

The Christmas present camera has arrived. I asked if that's what was in the box, H said yes, but you don't have to keep it. I asked why he would say that? and he said I didn't seem very interested and could trade it for something else. He must have read my face on Christmas, 'cause I didn't even have the box open yet tonight. He's not feeling well, coming down with a cold it seems. I don't want to say anymore tonight except to ask him to help me figure it all out when he feels better. But is this also an opportunity to write a nice thank you note? along with a few things I've been feeling and thinking? and that I was so surprised at any gift at all? try and break the barrier a little? or just leave it at expressing my thanks again.

And, I think I've got NYE plans with another couple, tentative.