Venting - mortgage payment due. I handled it wrong. I asked H if he would transfer money to the account today so I could make payment today or tomorrow, he asked if he could just give me a check. Yes, that would be fine. So he handed me a check for 1/3 of the mortage. I asked where I should get the rest of it from? He thought he could deposit some checks and come up with a little more....I didn't stay and ask, but where is his money? Sure, I should pay my fair share too, but FAIR isn't 2/3 to 1/3 when he is the guy that makes more money!

The leaving 180 - if I had 2 or 5 or 10 kids, would it still be suggested to disappear? just wondering if that makes any difference. Maybe not a fair comparison.

New H trick developing - sits in a different spot in the room so he can view the computer screen when I'm on at home. Guess I'll have to rearrange my desk. I've never cared for the set up much anyway.

Gave blood yesterday, tried to do a double donation on the special machine but my iron count wasn't high enough. It barely made the regular cutoff, which is normal for me. I take extra iron pills and eat iron rich food before a blood bank, and sometimes I still don't make it. Doctor has never mentioned anemia, I just have naturally low iron and need to supplement it. And it worked out (after much coordination) that my sis and I were there at the same time so we got to gab at the lunch table after donating. Which means I got home very much later than usual, thought it would create mystery, but H got home even later.

I have to mention this. Many of you comment on how hard I work. I don't know if that describes it right. I work long, but not always hard. Is there a difference? I feel like there is. I'm up early, work 8 or 9 hours in town, plenty of things to occupy my time at home in addition to all the usual things of regular household stuff, then there is the whole livestock and home business stuff. So there is never enough hours to manage to get everything done, and I work long, and I try to work smart. The last couple of nights have been hard work. My body is sore and tired, and then I wiped out coming across the icy parking lot at work, and am bruised and more sore. After another rotten nights sleep, I so wanted to stay in bed today. Mind and body are both tired. I think this will be a good day to take some more time off, and go home and be lazy and nap.

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.