arrrrgh. More self talk. Argh.

BF: currently AIM btw(laptop) . Don't have W Mssng. on laptop yet but use all IM phooey on desktop, MSN Mssg; Yhoo Msg; AIM blah.

What were you saying? Arg. I am going to post something in next post on very interesting concept of False North Stars in R.

Yes. All jumble right now but your comment on leading, ie, alpha not letting things aimlessly drift.. More on that later etc.

Yes. Trust, security, fun. Trust is my current quandary. Was going to post this on NOP's relationshipp killers thread but, in essence:

If you say I have trust issues and lie to me in order to "protect my feelings/not hurt me" you are creating irony. I trust. I then always invariably find out the lie (there is a saying: "morality always wins in the end") and you feed further into my trust psychosis like an endless loop.

...grumble...so late...so too tired to even sleep. again.

-Stigmata-


The difference between a warrior and an ordinary man is the warrior views everything as a challenge;
the ordinary man views everything as either a blessing or a curse.

-Yaqui shaman Don Juan-

...and that holds 2x true for nice guy wussies, DJ

-Stigmata-