Hey... I get it, I really do. This site can very easily become addictive... a mental crutch. It can also be a den of enlightenment. Depends on how you use it. INTENT. Intent drives everything.
I notice from what you've written that you seem obsessive compulsive. Most highly intelligent people are. And I'm wondering if it's occured to you that the reactions/feelings you seem to be having could be coming more from your O/C tendencies than any feelings you may have for your STBX.
Meaning... if a majority of your feelings are stemming from O/C type behavior (phantom feelings, conjurings of the mind, illusions of the internal judge) and not wholly stemming from a 'great lost love....' what would you do then? What would that mean to you? How then would you operate?
Corri
P.S. Myst II is out. I'm sure you know that. Could be a great way to ignore Xmas day, kwis? I'm either taking a very long road trip, or I am going to stay in bed and watch chick flicks all day.
