I really empathize. I know I may seem like the enemy given your quote:
---------------------------------------------------------- Pregnant and their SOs take off. These are not men. If one of these did this to my sister he would not be long for this world. But that's modern society for you. No accountability for anything...blame others. Run away to save yourself. Hide from your lack of character. But bad things always happen to the good people, don't they? Bad people skate and prosper. But my belief in the afterlife and karma keeps me from giving up on the idea of payback on them. --------------------------------------------------------
but I am aware of the angst you feel, the searching for answers to how you can feed your passion for life while opening yourself up to so much hurt. And even if you find someone who will stick with you through thick and thin, in the end, we all die alone. We all have to make that final step in ourselves, by ourselves. How do we combat that ultimate lonliness, that no matter how hard we try no one can ever fully share this journey with us. And the more we share, the more hurt and pain we open ourselves up to. And then if we do tie ourselves to someone, and they reject us later, how do we deal with the pain. Are we "men" and stoically endure, or do we give in to our baser animal nature and lash out, in one way or another. There has to be an answer to it all. But then I realize that people have been searching for this answer in one way or another for thousands of years (at least) and only a few ever find it.
OK, I'm starting to ramble a bit. I hope you will be able to look upon me as a friend, despite my shortcomings. If you'll have it, I give whatever help I can.
I hope for the best for you,
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"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
