I can't tell you anything that will make it better. Only time can erode it enough that it becomes manageable.
As for soul mates, that is nothing more that brain chemistry. Love is a choice. Real love is what you do when all the feelings are gone. Your X either didn't understand this simple truth, or she lacked enough character to see her through the hard times.
The thing for her, is that she will do this again and again until she either learns the truth or grows tired of the chase.
My mother finally figured it out a couple of years before she died. I hope that your X learns her lesson sooner rather than later. Either way, make sure that you learn what you need to from all this experience and pain. It is possible for you to come out of this wiser from the experience, although you will be a bit worse for the wear and tear.
Hang in there, the old silverback will come out to play soon enough. The time is soon to come that you won't think about her or want her back. She will start chasing you again at some point after that. You will have to decide what you want then.
Do get back to the heavy lift. Get cut and fit. Take it out on the steel. Get a new man back in the process.
All the best, -NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
