You've been such a good and faithful wife to him; he's a lucky man.
 Ok, that last part is true The first part I have a hard time accepting. Slept with OM during S, and now that we are back together, it does feel like I have been unfaithful even though he knew exactly what was going on and pretty much ok'd it.
But even now, I still feel like I lust in my heart. Is that normal/ok? Still love it when guys flirt with me or I flirt with them. Still worried about my boundaries. A work in progress.
Thanks for such kind words though HP!
As for the AD's, yes, he admitted to having a few days beginning of January that were really hard for him. Once he got past that first week or so, he felt great.
It is VERY hard to deal with M problems when there are other issues such as depression going on. They can be intertwined of course but his was really off the deep end for a while. He left right? He shudders sometimes when he thinks about what he was giving up and let's face it, he is paying the price in many ways. We lost that year forever and have to deal with the aftermath. But, I really think we can be better than we EVER have been so that makes it worth it I guess.
I would hate to see our progress start to falter so I certainly will be filling his love tank more. Promise! Guess that means more cooking and, gulp, cleaning for me. But darnit! why is it so hard for me to do what I know full well will make him happier?
You do it HP. You don't like it but you do it. My mind is rationalizing left and right why I shouldn't HAVE to do it. He should just be happy to have a fun W that likes hot sex! But of course, the sex will probably always be somewhat more my need than his. If he really starts to step up to the plate to meet my needs than I have no excuse not the meet his. Darn it again!!!