Are you going to demand a hot kiss with THAT expression on your face? LOL

What? Not sexy? No no no I will be my usual charming self lol. In fact, like I told GEL, I am just going to go into it expecting good food and drinks and not anything specific from H. Less pressure that way.
The past is the past. That was long enough ago that it is no longer the pattern of your life right now.
Agreed. We are both in a completely different place in our M now so it should not really be a problem. I just tend to dwell on the negative too much sometimes. Hurt feelings are hard to mend but we are making really good progress.
Don't act, do.
Ok Yoda
Picture the situation. Your "date" is having a great time, all smiles, laughing, talking, joking ... or your "date" is sitting there frowing, looking at you expectantly, fidgeting uncomfortably, looking hurt. Which one would you want to kiss?
Trust me, after one of their martinis, I'll be extremely relaxed and my usual sexy, cute self Guess I don't need to seek help on your self-esteem thread do I? Actually, this is all really newfound self-esteem but I am running with it. If I feel good about myself, it doesn't matter if anyone else, even my H, validates it. I WANT him to but don't NEED him too. That is a big change and makes me feel much stronger about myself and the M. Ironically, since I have been acting/feeling like this, he is much more attracted to me so it really works! Keep working on your own self-esteem Chrome. Your W will definitely take notice