Whoever coined the phrase Hell hath no fury.. obviously was in direct contact with some ancestor of either yours or mine, eh. I don't blame you one bit for being resentful.
Well, thank you for that. Sometimes I wonder if I am too resentful but then I think, no way. He did major damage. If I just swept it under the rug, I would not be honest with myself and the hurt I feel.
I guess what I am suggesting is that you two do something symoblic to bury once and for all that old marriage. I just don't know if that will be helpful other than like you said "symbolically". I need to reach a point of really embracing that before I just go through the motions.
It almost seems like you're mad at him for how he acts, but also mad at yourself for TAKING it. Yes, my own reaction is questionable in my own mind. When I feel committed to working on the M, I question that. And when I feel detached and not committed to the M, I question that as well. The strange part if how I can see-saw back and forth quite easily. I never feel comfortable with either choice. That alone is hard to live with.
Please don't question yourself--you rock, dear heart! Thanks HP! I guess I really am making a decision because we are back together. I think long and hard about it every day. In that sense, I am very committed. Committed to making the right decision, no matter what that ultimately is.
