{{{LFL}}}} I recognize the place you are in...both you and H have ambivalent ( but intense)feelings about the marriage and life feels like an emotional rollercoaster. He feels this too..he just expresses it differently. One of you eventually has to step up to the plate to see it through; otherwise, you go round and round in circles, with moments of great connection followed by despair.
Don't put too much weight into any particular " down"...especially one that is occuring at the brink of New Years, a time filled with lots of mixed emotions. I am in a down phase myself right now, coupled with the fact that all of us are sick here. Sounds like a good time for the two of us to go on a guilt-free chocolate binge, whaddya say to that?
