I should have listened to everyone and not snooped. Now I know who and where the OW lives and her phone number. I found her name in the papers of the garbage and found her address and phone # on Whitepages.com
What hurts so much is that he's written love letters to her and I read them. He sees me and we ML and he's telling her how much she means to him.
You see, every week he brings his bags of garbage here (from the RV where he lives five miles away)takes mine from the basement, and puts it all in front of the house for pickup. When I think of it, I do realize that he is stupid for doing this. He definitely does not want me knowing who she is, so don't you believe he would not put the evidence into the trash?
I really didn't want to snoop today. I always walk around our circular driveway for exercise, but they were late picking the trash up. After the forth trip around my curiosity got the best of me and I carried the bags into the garage and dumped them out.
What I found sickened me. Of course, in the back of my mind I remembered that my lawyer told me to get all the evidence that I could, so that was one of my rationalizations for doing it.
I found some letters he was writing to her, and some papers on a Zaba search. It's funny that he was doing the Zaba search now, since the relationship has been going on for two months. Anyone have any ideas why he might begin this now?
The hard part is that I have a date with him tomorrow night, and I'm afraid I'll let it out that I know who she is. I feel so horrible. I've cried all day and had a hard time doing my photo work I had to do. I want to stand him up tomorrow night, but I love him so much that I also want to see him. Maybe he's seeing me to keep my calm so I won't fly off the handle, or maybe he's seeing me out of guilt, or because the sex is so great--I don't know.
