That's a good point about talking from the bottle, WCW. Yeah, he may have been doing that. He did a lot of that during the bomb period.
Yes, I imagine he might be a little stressed about the visit. And I know he has to be more than a little stressed and frustrated about his leave being hung over his head at work. There is simply never a right time to take leave at a unit like his. They are understaffed and overworked permanently.
I'm not taking H's email as his last word. I've learned that much. He says what he means at the time and then changes his mind. I'm not going to flip out over it (at least not when he can see), but I won't hide being disappointed. He may yet decide to do show and tell for his son. But, I'm tryng to lower my expectations. H has sent pictures and videos of himself on the ship for S3. But he doesn't have to actually stand up in front of anyone to do that. As good a dad as H started out to be, I don't think even S3 is enough incentive for H to face his issues. I won't bring show and tell up again until he is actually here, and then I'll just ask once more before I accept it as his last word. And let disappointment land where he throws it.
I told H's mom about the day care director asking if H would come in for show and tell. His mom went into a long story about how proud she was of her own father when he picked her up from school in uniform. When she finds out H refused to do it, I want to be a fly on the wall. I'm so angry right now I'd like to call her up and tell her so she can start in on him right now. Of course I won't.
As far as him not "knowing" which airport he is flying into...it's real hard for me to look on the bright side of that right now. I've waited for so long with hardly any contact, keeping myself going by looking toward the light at the end of the tunnel. I guess the danger with doing that I've put so much stock in that light that when H starts to waffle, it's devastating. Hard to keep my expectations in check when I have so little interaction to base things on.
I've let myself go down a negative path today. I keep "snooping," so to speak. I went on line and looked up how much a ticket would cost to fly to where I am versus H's parents'. It would be more expensive for H to fly to his parents and he would have to change plains at MY AIRPORT to do it. Just about kills me. I'd like to kill HIM. I'll give myself the rest of today to do this. Then I got to start the positive thinking machine up.
It's a good thing he isn't going to be calling soon because I don't know if I could keep my tongue in check or keep from slamming the phone down.
