(((opti))) Not sure if I should try the cowgirl up speech or sympathize and empathize with you. It sure must be tough to go so long in between visits from H and not being in physical touch. The only thing worse is being together and not being in physical touch, just ask me.
Is it a possibility for you to visit H? why not take a trip and go see him? plant the seed and think about it.
This could be the best time of all to be signed up for the KLA forum. Sounds like you need a good boost. Other than hearing that phone call, what changed about H that he seems so distant to you? do you have his favorite cologne? spray it around to remind you of him. Anything else you can do?
Take a break, concentrate on your training, make it a refreshing time for yourself. Enjoy!
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
