I started to post a couple nights back but I was just so damn tired and stressed that I gave up.
The good news...Tuesday afternoon I closed on the house and after a couple hours of signing and initialing and making uncomfortable pleasantries with all parties involved it was DONE!
The bad news...I got home after the closing and thought "gosh, the house is kind of cold." Turned out the furnace wasn't responding and after a couple hours of reading manuals and looking at things I had no clue about, I gave up and wrapped S3 and I in blankets for the night. It was REALLY cold the next morning and I lost many hours from work having the brand new furnace fixed.
I was so stressed and exhausted and irritable about having to do this all on my own with a three year old and a full time job. But, it's what I wanted so I didn't rush to tell H about it or ask my mom for help who would have just thrown it in my face that I HAD to buy the house.
The good news...This morning I got an email from H saying that he was proud of me for the way I managed this all on my own. Boy, that sure saved my day. And now that I understand what Words of Affirmation mean to H, it means more when he gives them to me. Before, I wouldn't have given his compliment much thought. But, now it helps me get through another day...dragging and exhausted.
I still am going to have to argue with the company that installed the furnace less than a year ago about the bill they are sending my way. But I'm not going to address that until next week. It's just all too much. I don't do well with lack of sleep and S3 has been having coughing fits at night and just when I needed a good night's rest the most the furnace breaks...
I just have to believe that life will get easier someday. Please, no one tell me, "welcome to the real world," because if that's the case, I don't want to be here.
