Wow. Exactly what I needed, guys. Thanks. I'm going to digest this myself over the next coupla hours and get back to you. But quickly:
BB, you are sooo dead on with that analogy. I totally see what you're saying. My girls have had their share of those hard-earned solid spankin's, too. And you're right. It's like nothing ever happened afterward. And when I've lost my frustration, and when they've lost their attitude, I feel *exactly* the way I feel about H right now. I feel sorry, and I feel sad. I want to pick the girls up and hold them and hug them and take their hurt away. But it doesn't mean that I shouldn't have spanked them. They needed to be taught a lesson.
Wow. I would never have thought of those similarities.
bigAl, I'm worried about me, too. But because I realize that my heart will definitely be hardened when this is all said and done, I've already made an appt. with a MC for me, alone. I've had the appt. for a few weeks. I've told her that I don't believe I need to "work on me"; that's why I'm going to a MC instead of a regular C. I need to figure out the dynamics of Rs, and I need to learn to be able to trust humankind again. I'm already sure that I won't, so I'm trying to be proactive. So don't worry so much, okay? But keep giving me good insight. I really appreciate it. And I need things thrown in my face every once in a while.
