Ya know, I guess I have to wonder if it's really over from his perspective. He told me today (and last night) that he's "done." I'm kinda blaming myself for "tipping the scales" in OW's direction.

But H also told me three months ago -- and just over three weeks ago -- that our M was over. "I'm moving on. It's over." And look what happened...

I went through this with ex-H, too. I would be convinced that I did something to screw everything up. I would just *know* that he would never come back. And he always did. Only for of course, but he'd always come back. I'm not playing that game this time.

Ex-H and H are two different people, though, ya know? I feel today that I've lost H for good, and that makes me sad. Really. Now what does that mean for me? Not sure. Time will tell, I suppose.