Crazee, I wanted to post more. I also used to be obsessive with the schedule and the vacations and such. I also am the kind of person who, if he realizes that it is wrong just fixes/stops it. Since I have done that my world is in Color not Black & White. My relationship with my Stepson17 is better than I could have dreamed. My friends notice and are more my "friends". And believe it or not my wife notices!!! Now she prefaces it by saying it may or is too late but I'm not giving up or believing it!!
I guess my point is to decide what is the most important for YOU. For me it is my Wife and Family exclusively.