Ok, I am trying to distance myself because he keeps coming back and forth, right? Right. He even said so himself: I don't know what I want. Next time I come around, don't let me in 'cause I can hurt you more.
So apparently he can't control himself. I had left a VM saying I had to work at 6am today till 7pm, so he could keep the dog for the day.
He knows I would be asleep by 12:30am, which I was, and that's when he called.
I don't even remember the convo, but he seemed to be crying and just wanted to know if I was ok. Wanted to hear my voice. Said he just slept all day.
I excused myself 'cause I needed to wake up in a few hours and he repeated he just wanted to see if I was ok and wanted to hear my voice.
So, thank you very much, I am back to limbo land. ugh.
It sucks (and it doesn't at the same time) that he keeps giving me hope.
But I will not call, will not pursue, will keep living my little life and trying to meet new people.
