I've had the same worries about seeming great, so then H will not want to come back. But the truth is, he didn't want to come back when I was falling apart, so how could this be worse? Also, it's good for *me* (and you). We need to take care of ourselves. Your H married a strong woman and that's who he wanted in his life. He is probably a weak man (I know mine is) and wanted a woman to support him. Frank D has a great post about this on the infidelity board.
You need to take care of *you*. I'm glad you had a good sleep and a nice evening.
Nicola
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