bj, H came by to check up on me cause I was feeling sick. Was very loving and all but when he asked if I had schedule the C, I said no. I don't want to do it anymore. I feel like I am fighting alone. We decided to both go dark. I even ask him to block me from his IM. He called before he went to bed, already breaking our rules. He was crying.
He keeps saying he doesn't know what he wants and marriage is not in his heart. He thinks he will never be married again.
