Why should I complain?

[mystia97]

Nops,
you to learn to be a veritable duck's back and let the water roll off.

That's the problem, water can only roll off for so long before it begins to saturate and bog you down. Amazingly enough, when he pushes me to that breaking point, is when I start to see more positive actions from him. Especially when it's anger.

I am back in our bed now, because he asked me to.

Journaling:

On my last post, I indicated I was preparing to leave for my mom's for a day or two. I ended up going to Wal-Mart and then heading back home to get an hour or two of sleep before driving. Left very early the next morning. H had asked me to call when I arrived at my destination. It was still quite early so I sent him a text instead. Allowed S4 to call H a couple of hours later, he left a message. I went out with my 2 best girlfriends for lunch. We each had 1 drink and lunch and were there for almost 3 hours. It was so wonderful and therapuetic. We used to be inseperable but since our respective H's have entered our life, it's not the same between us. Anways, during this time H called at least 5 or 6 times. I didn't answer any of them until the last one. To heck with him, he knew I was safely at my destination and he also knew I had lunch with the girls planned! Well, when I did answer he just wanted to know when I'd be home so he could arrange rides to and from work. I'm honestly not quite that dumb and don't believe it. He just couldn't stand the idea of us girls talking about him


Once again, that night, he called and left a message to let him know when I was on my way home. I presumed for safety reasons so I left him another message to let him know when.
We had previously planned on staying at his Dad's that night, to watch the ball drop, sleep in front of a fireplace and relax in the comfort of somebody else's home So I followed that plan. H talked to me a bit and even tucked me in on the couch when I was ready for bed. We got up the next morning and when he went to work I went shopping with his stepmom. He worked 5 hours came home for an hour and went back to work another 5 hours. In between that time, he had to pick me and the kids up and drop us off at home. What a grump, he just wouldn't keep his nasty mouth quiet and made the rest of us feel like crap. Here's where things start to change. About 15 minutes after he dropped us off, he called back and was all nicey-nice. Thanks for doing this and that, blah, blah, blah. Okay, whatever because I thought it would be back to the same-ole stuff when he got home later. It wasn't. He woke me up with a Frosty he brought home for me and took me downstairs to talk. We then went up upstairs and he worked on setting up a computer while I laid on a air mattress and talked to him. He said he'd had a long talk with his dad on Saturday and realized some things. We were intimate.
Monday went very well, we spent 90% of the day together taking care of the kids and window shopping. Once again, more wonderful intimacy and he asked me back to our bed. Now, I must work hard on maintaining this bridge we've built. He's also asked the I look for some couple's groups so we can begin making friends with people in this new area and get out of the house together more. I'm not having much help in this area and I may have to look towards finding a church. I don't mind this at all and feel it's something we should have done long ago but H is pretty skeptical. He has issues with church.

So all in all, the weekend ended much better than it began!