Thanks for your tough love. I know I need to stop the pursuit but it's just so hard. I often think my H does things specifically to make me continue to pursue him. Of course a year ago when he almost left the first time my pursuit brought him back so it's hard to realize that this time it isn't working.
As for his comments about me being "crazy," it's in regard to an argument we had a couple weeks ago. It got mildly physical on both sides and somehow he has managed to frame it as me going crazy. He's a master of twisting things around.
I probably have made some bad judgment calls but they weren't that horrible. They largely concern money as I only work part-time. I haven't had a full-time job for almost two years and he hates me for having to cut back on spending. I quit my full-time job because it was making me really unhappy and I guess I was probably depressed until a few months ago when I woke up and realized just how bad things were in my M. Then at the time I finally pulled myself out of depression I bought a classic car that we really couldn't afford. So he uses that as yet another bad decision to throw in my face. He conveniently forgets all the money he has spent going out drinking with his friends. At the moment I'm doing my best to get a full-time job now to improve this situation.
I'm going to try my very best and not contact him at all this week. Maybe I need to sit down and come up with a weekly plan and then stick to it instead of letting him manipulate my behavior.
