Well I guess I knew that our talk today would not go well. Frankly I don't know what we actually accomplished. The gist was something like this:
H: It's over, move on with your life. M: I know we will end up together give me another chance.
I know it probably is not a good idea to tell him that I know we will end up together but it's just how I feel. Actually it's what I know. I don't really know how to explain it, but deep in my heart I know that despite everything my H and I will be able to pull things together.
The only thing positive from today was that he agreed he would go to one counseling session if I agreed to sign a separation agreement. Any of you who have been to counseling, do you have any advice? At this point my H said his major issue with me is trust. He doesn't trust me not to go crazy; he doesn't trust me to make good decisions; and he doesn't trust me as a life partner.
It's started snowing here and it makes me miss him even more. We discussed maybe doing something tomorrow but we'll see if he actually follows through on his word.
