I'm glad you guys don't think I should be ashamed of my behavior. Perhaps you missed the part where I wrestled with him for his cell phone and basically carried on to the point where the police came.
At this point I feel at a complete loss as to what to do. I no longer have a key to my apartment which really really sucks. I don't know if I should bother trying to save my M now that he's decided to start another A with OW#2. I'm at a complete loss.
On top of that my H doesn't even consider our apartment ours anymore. Yesterday he kept talking about his apartment and how he wouldn't feel safe if I had access to our apartment and that now he couldn't trust me because I snooped. Yeah, I'm the untrustworthy one.
With this most recent A of my H's I've realized he has a nice little pattern going. He's had an office romance at every place he's worked. I was the first. Then the first OW was at his 2nd job and now he's at his 3rd office and is working on his next OW.
Unfortunately I still feel that eventually my H will come back but I'm not sure how we will be able to survive after a second A. Not to mention that he has told me that neither are really affairs because we were separated. WTF!!! Maybe he considers us separated now as we're not living under the same roof but last I checked he was still saying ILY and we were still ML. That's not separation under any definition.
I would scream if I wasn't so emotionally drained. Any thoughts on whether a M is worth saving if there is more than one A?
