I've come the the conclusion that even though I've moved out, I'm seeing too much of my H. Because of computer issues, I've had to come to our apartment several mornings to work. Fortunately a friend of mine is going to give me her laptop soon and I will be able to truly go dark on my H.
Yesterday morning I was working (I do Web research from home a couple of mornings a week) and my H was about to leave for work and I noticed the tie he was wearing. He had on the tie he married me in and I completely lost it and started crying. He's worn it for a couple other very special occasions, but I'm sentimental about the tie and I know he had to have known what my reaction was going to be.
In the end he changed his tie and then said something along the lines of "this is why we need some time apart." After he left I felt like crap and ended up sending him a text message to apologize: "sorry for getting emotional. I'm sentimental about the tie and you caught me offguard. You're right we do need some time to clear our heads."
At first I thought I made a horrible mistake in my reaction, but in the end I realized that A) he still cares enough that he would change the tie and B) he said "this is why we need time apart" and not "this is why we need to get a divorce" or something along those lines.
Then this morning he said he got my text message and before he left for work he actually asked me if I though his tie was tied too long. This is a very odd thing for him to do as in the past he complained about me having too much say over his clothing choices.
We had discussed doing something Saturday evening but I think it's off. When he left he said I'll see you Sunday right? which is when I will be back over to work next. Fortunately I'd already decided that I shouldn't see him on Saturday so I was one step ahead of him and not bothered he didn't want to see me tomorrow.
