Glad you think I'm doing well Flaneur. Frankly I'm not sure I agree. Beside all the crap going on with my H, my sisters are splitting up from their H and fiance. Now it's not like either of their Rs were perfect, but I feel like when I went down they followed.
I'm the oldest and I've always had to be the strong one, the one everyone (I have a younger brother too) comes to when they have a problem. I find it a bit irritating that I can't have my crisis without having to worry about them too. Perhaps what they are doing has nothing to do with me, but it certainly doesn't feel that way.
When I found out about my H's A, I told both my sisters. I told my youngest sister first as we're closest and then my middle sister who has gone through the same thing. I figured if they both knew there would be less pressure on them to keep the secret. My middle sister told only me about her H's A and it was so stressful to be the only one who knew.
Unfortunately, not long after, my youngest sister announced that she was not going to get married and moved in with my parents. Then my middle sister decided she was going to leave her H and got her own apartment. This all happened between Thanksgiving and New Year's.
I'm finding it very hard to talk to them not only because I have enough to worry about, but because it's hard to sympathize with a WAS.
GRRR. Little brats!
It's like I'm not allowed to fall down. When I was depressed last year (so great to finally not be depressed and then find out your H had an A) I feel like my H lost his admiration for me. I was always the one who took care of things and pulled everyone together. When I wasn't the strong person I had always been he went off and had an A.
GRRR. Big brat!
All of this means I'm having to pull a 180 on everyone by not taking care of any of them.
