I'm picking him up at the airport because it would be cruel to leave him stranded. I also do miss him and would like to see him.
When I said I don't want him back regardless I mean I'm unwilling to live with him in his current state. I'm not willing to just forget everything and sweep it under the rug like nothing happened.
I do want him back, BUT, I'm not willing to disregard all he has put me through without some major effort on his part. I guess I'm just tired of his games and tired of being strung along. At the moment he wants to have me to take care of him AND do all the things he did as a bachelor like go out when he wants, drink and smoke to his heart's content and answer to nobody. Frankly I've been way too permissive.
