Totally, Kismet, KDU - Thanks for dropping by with your advice. Appreciate it lots.
Plus if you are PMS y, well yes, you will be feeling crappy. Could be PMS or could be bottled-up sorrow that just needed to escape. Just couldn't control myself. Cried consistently the whole day yesterday (Monday). Cried at lunch. Cried in the afternoon, cried on my way home. Cried over my chocolate souffle (thought some chocolate would lift my spirits...)
I point this out because your H knows you better than I think you know yourself. I think that is rather true. I was feeling rather blue and crying my eyes out yesterday, and he called me. I lied that I was having a cold and he knew that I was lying.
decided to act as if you didn't care I guessed I was doing rather well detaching until yesterday. Although I didn't bombard him with texts and kept silent, he knew I was not "normal". He did comment that "you were soooo cheerful last week. What happened?" . Later, he did text me " You seem rather cold since yesterday. Are you ok?? Probably know why u are like this. Nite nite..." I didn't reply though.
It is hard but one of you needs to bite the bullet and do something because this back and forth helps nobody. Yes, I agree that this back and forth is helping nobody. And I do think that I need to be the one that does something. ANything to change the back and forth.
It will be hard once a decision has been made but see how well it goes in trying to stick to it - Hey you can always change your mind or so could H. I supposed that is true... but then again... what is the point of me changing my mind when H is still clinging to ow?
Have you found out where you stand legally in your Country. Think I am quite protected although the lawyers that I have spoken to said that there was a slight disadvantage as I am working. The entitlement is "sufficient alimony/maintenance" to maintain the similar standard of living.
have had a much better reaction from your H so please do not go back to the other YoYo Yes, I do realise that. Just couldn't contain myself yesterday. Although I did feel crap. Didn't bombard him with texts nor accusations. Just kept very silent. Figured that keeping silent is better than saying something bad.
I agree with your friend one month is nothing he should know what he wants but by now I guessed I realised this. That was why the sudden "realisation" sort of jolt me into reality. Its only 1 1/2 weeks to the deadline. If he had done the right thing, he would have already told me so. I don't expect that a miracle will happen in the eleventh hour.
just keep doing what you have been as you seem to cope better that way too. Okay...I will try. I do feel better today. A good cry solves quite a lot.
Journalling.. A total wreck yesterday. H called four times yesterday. Once in the afternoon. Told him that I was in a meeting and have a cold. Was already crying then.
H texted in the PM to inform that he called the house and no answer. (Went out with the boys for my chocolate soufle) Didn't text back.
H called about 9.30 pm. I was in the loo. S5 picked up the phone and came to tell me "Dad called and says to call him when you are done. And if you can't, he'll talk to you tomorrow".
When I came out, H called again. Got S5 to pick the phone up again. Wanted to run out. But S5 said "Yeah. SHe is out already". Spoke to H briefly. Cut the convo short by giving phone back to S5.
At about 10.30 pm. H called again. And asked how I was. That I sounded different and cold blah blah blah. Told him that I was fine just tired and have a cold. Kept call short cause really didn't feel like talking.
Then H texted "You seem rather cold since yesterday...blah blah " I didn't reply.
Tuesday, H called at 7.30 am. Asked if I just woke up, if I played with myself? (WTF??) Then told me that he was going for golf blah blah. Ended call.
Later, felt better. So gave him a short text "Just want to tell you that I am ok. Thank you very much for your concern". He didn't reply. So not going to bother.
I do feel better today. A good cry does release all the pent-up energies. Moved to a new workplace today (just next door, by the way) Nevertheless...a NEW place.
