Yo! Yoyo! I am going to reply to something a LONG way back in this thread, but it hit home.
Quote: When the boys need a hug, is he there to give one? When the boys want a story, is he there to tell them one? When the boys are ill, is he there to nurse them? When the boys are afraid, is he there to comfort them?
These are the things that I cry about daily, and I am not to one who is causing the situation that may result in my not being there to do those things.
Anyway, it sounds like you are in a really bad place. If you are not getting counseling, it does help. I have never thought about therapy in my LIFE before this terrible thing, and after 2 sessions, I don't know if I totally believe in it's healing power, but I do know it helps a lot to talk to someone who should be equipped to help you deal with your sitch. In any event, try to stay strong. I know it's really hard in the face of what you're going through but you've come this far and survived, chances are you have what it takes to handle whatever the deadline brings. I really hope things go your way, whatever that way is.
