Kismet - Thanks for dropping by, my wonder woman sista goddess!!
A wedding ~ I would not be game right now. I would be the one ejected for yelling out "Don't do it!" . Yep, I am afraid I am still a little bitter and twisted
I have to say that 2 weeks ago, when I was feeling rather sh!tty, I did contemplate of NOT going. But then regained some senses and thought Why Not? I mean I shouldn't be hiding in my sorrow shell, right? Plus, gave me an opportunity to dress up and look glamorous. ANd I must say that I did get a lot of compliments... I think even H thought I looked rather different. Oh...was again tempted to say "Weddings are soooo romantic, until reality sets in" LOL...but HELD my tongue.
Is it getter easier to not do the r talk stuff, or are you just getting stronger at not asking? Gosh...I have 1001 questions /stuff with regards to our R that I want to get it out and sorted. But HELD BACK. SO, the answer is that I am getting stronger at NOT asking not that I don't wanna ask. But I try to tell myself that ASKING and GETTING BAD answers is WORSE than not knowing anything at all. SO, keeping my mouth ZIPPED up is really much better. Besides, he will tell me when he wants to.
Eeeks, I think he's found DB and is going dark on you Betcha he doesn't wait that long That is true! He doesn't wait that long... He did send me a text later that day, and called numerous times the next day...but I was napping and didn't hear the calls, and when I looked there were 4 missed calls. HE HE HE...
Journalling... From my last post on Monday. H called my mom's to talk to the boys at about 7 pm. Later, at about 7.40 pm, got a text from H. H: U know something. U were very snakey this weekend. Think u were trying different trick!! U were so nice n we didn't figat at all . Frankly, I miss you. But even more confuse. Me: Not snakey just letting go and detaching. Can't control you. SO no point getting upset and spoiling my health. No reply from H...BUt I did give him a call about 9.30 pm to discuss some financial stuff. Was pleasant. Nothing major...but H did say that I was "smart" with regards to last weekend?? Wonder what that meant.
Tuesday. Just past midnight, got a text from H (didn't see this until the next morning when I woke up) - "Like your son says...nite nite sexy lady!!! Opened 3 new CDs to listen...still have 20 yet to open". I didn't reply...since nothing to say and it was already the next morning. From what I see...H is spending loads on money on stuff. What can I say? He will only see me as nagging...so might as well stay hushed.
Went for breakfast with my SIL, BIL, niece and 2 out-of-town cousins. Then went to do some grocery shopping. Went home, made jam ...have to say it tasted quite good. Read alittle with S5, then napped. WOke up, saw that I had 4 missed calls, and H had sent a text " Tried calling but no answer. Driving range here so expensive. Home is $ and over here is $$!!! talk to u later...Going back soon 2 finish up the book" I returned his text. And then he called like within 5 minutes. SOme niceties. Nothing major.
Took the boys out to the mall for bowling, and dinner. Saw that H had sent another text "huh?? ALl that trouble and nothing to show for?? You are right...very anti-climax. Hope the other book is better"....This was reference to the book that he was reading. I've read it already and told him that I didn't really like the ending.. I didn't reply to this text.
After dinner, came home and S8 had to finish off his homework. Left my mobile in the room. So, another missed call from H. Did send him a text "Didn't hear phone. S8 doing homework. Call in ten minutes to talk to boys". He did call and talk to the boys at exactly ten minutes later. S5 ended the call so I didn't talk to H.
Tucked boys into bed, and showered and went to bed myself. Just to complete the niceties, I sent H a text with reference to the book and wished he had a better reading with the other book and that I was gonna go to bed soon. H texted back with just a simple "Nite nite".
However, at 10 pm, got another text from H (I was already in bed...heard the beep) "Watching XYZ show now. Been playing with urself??" DIdn't reply since is was already in ZZZZZZ....
Wednesday... Woke up and did the school run...am at work now. And so another day begins!!!!
Oh...was again tempted to say "Weddings are soooo romantic, until reality sets in" LOL...but HELD my tongue. 
