Kismet/KDK - Thanks for dropping by. Nothing much happening. No dramas nor soap operas, which is good!!!
Yoyo, those stars are freaky! What date is the ultimatum? Ultimatum is 29 Jan 2006. So far, we haven't argued at all in this first week. Probably because I have controlled myself to NOT bring up any future talk, any R talk, any $ talk and not prolonging any of our convos. Whatever it is, will have to sort all these out when end-Jan comes.
but I think you are handling things well right now. I do hope that I am really handling things well, and not doing a fake ACT. I have resolved to telling myself that "I can only control myself. So stop thinking about it.Stop thinking about what would happen in the future. Live for the moment.". So far, think it's working quite well. Have not pick up my phone and send frantic texts.
Journalling... Wednesday: H did call my mobile in the evening. When I heard his voice, I said "Hold on" and then walked to hand the phone to the boys, without keeping on a convo with H. Boys spoke to him, and then I heard him say "Can I talk to mommy please?" and S5 was like "No...I am going to press the red button" and H saying "Can I talk to mommy please?"... I did take the phone from S5 and we had a short convo. Again ...nothing important.. rather lame type again, asked how I was blah blah... and then asked about my phone (my supposedly Xmas Present from him which I went out to buy for myself).? H: Saw your phone in the shop the other day. Very nice and stylish. Do you like it. Me: Yeah. I like the phone. Thank you very much for this present. H: You are welcome. How much did it cost? Me: $, which may I remind you that you still owe me. H: LOL... Me: Should have got the other model...blah blah blah. SOme more convo about the phone then I accidentally, pressed the END button.
Few minutes later, H called again asked how come the line went dead. Told him that I am still unfamiliar with the phone and accidentally ended the call. He proceeded to tell me about the CNN News about the mine accident in America. We talked a little bit about an freak accident that happened in our town. Blah blah blah. And when he wanted to go, I didn't try to prolong. Just said "Okay. BYe".
When I got home, I did send him a text...wanted to ask him if we were sharing the present for his sister's wedding. Didn't really want to text but needed to know as if we are sharing, then we can get something nicer. And if we are giving separate pressies, means the budget would be smaller. So I texted him: Me: Just 2 let u know that your mom is back from her holiday. And jus a quick question, pressie 4 your sis from both of us or u getting something separately yourself? H:Just get something together...I'll call my mom tmrw. Me: Ok. Was just asking....cause if you get something separately, then I would get something not so expensive. Anyway, your mom was complaining about the cold. No reply on this text..
THursday: H called at about 9 pm. When I answered I said "you are late today" and then passed the phone to the boys. H was supposed to call by 8.30 pm as school has started. But we were still out at dinner. H spoke to both boys then phone handed back to me. H: How come boys are not in bed? Me: We are out at dinner as my sis is going back to Oz. H: When? Me: This Sunday. H: OKay. I will call you some other time. Bye Me: Bye.
Later at about 11.30 pm. Heard my house phone ring. But as I've taken the phone out from my room, was toooo lazy to go answer it. Few minutes later, message beeped on my phone. It was H "Tried calling house but no answer. guessed u r not home yet. nite. nite. I have golf tmrw n Sat morning". I didn't reply. Wanted to...but felt that there was no point. What could I say? What would I say? I really can't say much... By the way, his sister's bachelorette party is on Sat night, and wedding on Sunday...and he is not flying back home on Sat am?? And instead going to play golf?? I really don't know. Don't want to say anything anymore. If he has lost his brain and can't do what is right, I can't help him nor control him. I didn't ask when he is coming back. Really no point, right? Of course I was tempted to ask when he will be back, or where he will be staying...but the answers may not be good and I would feel sh!tty....so, might as well just keep my mouth shut and WAIT and SEE and NOT hope or EXPECT anything. I am just gonna do my own stuff....and not let H affect me.
Will be rather busy...this Friday nite and weekend.. * Need to do bikini waxing * Buy SIL's wedding gift * Yoga * Manicure and Pedicure * S8's sport classes * Shopping for Chinese New Year Celebrations... Busy Busy Busy...so better not be too tied-up with H or his alien-infected brain. LOL...
Probably because I have controlled myself to NOT bring up any future talk, any R talk, any $ talk and not prolonging any of our convos. Whatever it is, will have to sort all these out when end-Jan comes.
